What is the feeling being alone?
What is the feeling of going shopping alone?
What is the feeling of eating alone?
What is the feeling of doing things alone?
Can't anyone share with me the feeling?
I really want to try the feeling of being alone
but i just don't have the courage........
i really don't know why
what actually am i fearing of?
i don't know
just don't like the feeling of being alone as i feel so loner like no friends in your life
but i feel that i must start to learn to grow up and get use to this kind of feeling
can't anyone share with me their feeling of doing things alone????
how the feeling?
and how it is like????

it has been 1 week since i have update my blog
as my daily routain are
go work
off work
reach home very tired so no mood for me to blog anything
and worst my work is boring so nothing much for my to blog to
life has been dry and dull

this week office has lots and lots of story going on
now den i finally understand the working society is so curel and scarly
everyone will do anything just to protect themself
why are all the people doing that ?
what kind of good denefits will they enjoy?
people are wearing mask to work.....
aren't they tired?
how nice will life be if everyone is caring and treating people around them nicely????
the whole world will be so so so peaceful.............
will that happen???

promise to blog again and keep your update of my life......
must wait wor.......
i will be back :)

Saw a mango bag @ $69
should i buy???
like it a lot....
normal price is 100 plus
now sales time is $69
is a balck bag
said small not very small
said big also not very big
can be brought to work and go out
should i go for it????
any suggestion????

Photo of myself....

Went Shopping with mummy today....
and yes!!!
i back to MS again
OMG... Mango having up to 50% sales
i wanted to go there shopping
John little having sales now
so many place are having sales now
i just want to go shopping
shopping.....shopping time....

tomorrow is a brand new week......
i will sleep early
and start a brand new week
i will reach early and will not be late
i will do my work proeprly without making any mistake
i will keep myself awake while doing my work
i will spen more time working, rather den slack there
i will change for the better

tomorrow will be a brand new day....
a happy day.....
a cheerful day....
a beautiful day.....
everything will turn out to be fine :)
jia you jia you.......

Works has been dull and boring recently.......
the work load is increasing and the more i do the more blur i am
this few day i found out that i always make mistake.....
why ????? i just don't like the feeling
maybe i really tired
especially when i sleep late the night before
den when i go work i look so tired.......
am it has been a few week i late for work
i never reach my office on the dot anymore
and i feel so guilty
especailly when i come later den my colleague

how my life in office????
office consist lot of people
i can say i don' not know most of them
some of them are friendly
but there are still a minority of people who are super unfriendly
8 June 2008 marks the day when i in the company for 3 months
and i can still said i do not feel myself being part of the company
very sad right???
althought i happy working with my colleague
as she is friendly
we have so many things to talk
so many joke to tell
maybe i can say our work station is located in a small room
so we tent to be less close to the staff outside, should not said "we" i sholud siad only me as i there for only 3 months while my colleague has been there for 3 years
of course she know everyone and able to start a conversation easily with them.....

i have been trying my best to start a conversation with people
but it seen so hard
especially when i see people i don't konw
or seen before but never talk at all
i really don't know how to start a conversation (this expalin why my friend are so limited)
my mouth will just shut up
without daring to said anything.......
please don't be mistaken me as a unfriendly person or "dao" person
as people who know me very well will know that i not this knid of people
insteAd i love to make friends, i treat every friendship seriuosly, i treasure all my friend..........

why some people able to start a converstation easily especially a stranger
while i can not
i really hate this character of mine
worst of all
when i not a indpendant person
i don't like to be alone
this make my life so miserable.........
why can't i just talk easily and freely when i saw a stranger or people who i not very close
my job really does not allow me to have this kind of character
as i will be seeing lots of people
having to communicate with lot of people
i feel and there is really a need to put a big full stop to this character of mine

i shall change into a character that i wanted most
to be sociable,,,,
to be friendly
to have lot and lots of things to chat with when i see different people
to become a people who see me and they will like me (ren jian ren ai)
when will i really change..........

Sometime i wonder
why people are born so different
why some people are born to be beautiful
while so are born ugly (i should not use this word ugly... i sholud said looks look normal)
those people that look normal has to put in so many effort in order to look beautiful
i can said 70% of the people has fail....no matter how hard they try and how they try to dress up
they still look normal especially when standing beside a beautiful girl....
is it so sad especially when this beautiful girl did not do anything to her look...
life is so unfair....
there is really no way or step to fellow if you want to become beautiful
if you are born beautiful it will always fellow you
if you are born normal you look will always be normal
so sad as i fall under the normal look.......
standing beside a beautiful girl or seeing beautiful girl make me feel so "zhi bai"
but what can i do????
i born like this...........
what do your think???
do you think there is really a way to fellow in order to become beautiful????

don't know why i suddenly will think of all this
maybe there is nothing much for me to crap or said
therefore i saying out my thinking.........

seriously i miss driving.............
especially when i go work or after a tried day of work
waiting for bus or mrt
have to squzze with people
have to stand through out the whole journey without able to find a sit
worst when you meet a reckless bus driver
and you are wearing high heals and worst when you are tired
you sense of balance will not be that strong
and you try to stand properly using 2 of you hand holding the handler properly
because of some stupid reckless bus driver in the end you will lose your sense of balancing
and you will alomst fall down.........

from there onward you will think and think and think.........................................................................
and start to dream
how nice will it be if you really have your own car.......
without having to waste your time waiting for bus
this mean you will reach home faster
without having to stand throught the whole journey and you can sit till you reach your destination(how nice it will be)
without having to squzze with people
and no need to meet reckless driver
and you can wear as high heels as you can
you can talk inside the car or sing song without having to care about people
as there are no people in the car and people outside will not be able to heard you
without having to carry all those heavy stuff like your bag
as you can just throw inside,,,,,,,,,,,,
how nice it will be.............
i really dreaming.........
dream is always so nice.............
when will my dream really come truth????

lacking of sleep this few week has really cause my skin to become form bad to worst and lots and lots of thing

first of all: my dark ring is getting blacker
second of all: during the day i feel like sleeping and not doing anything
thrid of all: my face start ot have lots of things to pop out
four of all: i look older due to lack of sleep

when will i start to be good girl sleep early
i shall make the habit to get onto my bed on 11pm................

In the process of growing out and learning to be independance.......

Can you believe that in less den 3 day i spend a total of $117.95..............
my pocket is burning hot now..... really hot...........
i shall stop spending anymore liao..........
really... i announce that i broke from this minute........
the worst things is that this $117.95 does not consist of any clothes or shoes......
this mean that i did not buy any clothes or shoes loh
so sad.......i finally den know......i actually so good at spending money
i finally aggree with this sentance: earning money is hard, spend money is easy
let's look back a what have i brought for this 3 days..........

Cleo Mag @ $4.40
Shape Mag @ $5.00
Shopaholic & Baby (Story book) @ $17.15
Difficult Conversations (Story book) @ $28.95
Sweet Potato Chiffon Cake @ $31.00
Rice Concealer Tip @ $16.50
2G Micro SD Card @ $14.95

There goes my money..............

Should i reborn my fringe ???
Should i dye my hair???
sick and tired of my look and hair......

i want facial......
i want reborn my fringe....
i want to dye my hair......
i want a brand new look.......
will my dream ever come truth?????

As mentioned earlier......... I have been reading on "SKIN FOOD" product
I have come out a summrise list of what i wanted.....
Has been looking and reading and listed down what i want at the end of it i was shock it was a long long list.
A total of 15 items and total cost will be $336.90.......
OMG............
It so expensive.....
Average of each items cost $22.46..............
How many month of saving do i need to save........
Jiao You wor........
I should shop less and eat cheaper food............
This is the fastest way for me to save mnoey
Wa Ha Ha Ha..... Jiao you wor you can do it one......

• Aloe Sun BB Cream SPF 20 PA
• Lemond Base
• Sweet Potato Chiffon Cake
• Buck Wheat Loose Powder
• Rice Concealer Tip
• Lemon Eye Brightener
• All Over Muffin Cake # 01 Strawberry Honey Muffine
• Vitamin Shadow
• Black Bean Eye Line Pencil
• Chestnut Length Mascara
• Lip Glitter Star
• Honey & Royal Jelly Mask Wash Off
• Watermelon Cream
• Watermelon Essence
• Snow Tea Eye Serum

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Today has been reading "Skinfood" website
from what i read, I can said their product really very good....
thier product are make from food....
will it be good for our skin???
so tempting to own skinfood product
from their make up till skin care product....
who will have the money to buy for me???
think i shall start saving in order to buy all this product
i can say their product is not cheap nor it is expensive
but it will still cost me a bomb as i want to buy several of their product.....
has any one try before skinfood product????
what you think of this produc？？？？
anyone try before can share some comment with me????

@ 7:28 PM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

This is what we actually will do when we are borde in the Bus..........................

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Has Anyone mentioned before the importance of reading????
i really can't remmeber this sentance..........
remember teacher and parents used to repeart this sentance thousand and thousand of times till they finally give up and never mentioned anymore.......
i finally understand the meaning behind this sentance......
reading will not only improve your languages
it able us to gain different knowledge....
so your mind set will not be that simple....
your knowledge will not be so limited....
able to see different problem @ different angle
life will be borded and uninteresting when no reading take place....
without reading anythnig... you are just a frog sitting in the well without knowing how the world look like......
isn't it sad???? living a life like a frog sitting in the well all day long knowing nothing???
I decided to wake up any stop living like a frog life...........
decide to start cultivate this reading habit....
reading story books.......
reading mag....
reading newspaper.....
reading any artical from any where
hope by doing this is not late....
to catch up things that i have miss for the pass few years........
to improve myself base on knowledge and language.......
after a few month of working without reading anything or study anything
i can say life is dull and uninteresting
decided to pick up and countine this reading habit that has beeen taught since i was a child......

@ 8:07 PM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

What is the feeling being alone????
when ever i go out....
i will see people sitting alone eating.....
or seeing people shopping alone..........
What is the feeling of it????
Is the feeling good or bad???
i really envy people who are so independance.....
i really don't have the courage of doing all this...
my thinking of shopping or eating alone is so scarely.....
so lonely....no one to talk to... no one to share your thinking with......
isn't that scarely ????
I really pei fu people who actually can does that........
in the process of learning to be independance
i really hope and wish to become people who can shop alone.... eat alone... do thing alone... without the need of people accompany....
when will i become the person that i always wanted????

@ 8:33 PM

Monday, June 09, 2008

Has any one use before make up product from "The Face Shop" or "Body shop"????
Which one is better in terms of their make up product????
my face is getting from bad to worst......... :(

@ 8:16 PM

Friday, June 06, 2008

Marche on 31 May 2008

Prawns

Squid

Marche Creep

Creep Ham

Mixed Juice

Root/Ginge Bunda

Saw the banana inside (OMG!!! So yummy)

The Prawn is going into my mouth. Wa Ha Ha

Squid flying into my mouth......

One Mouth and there goes the Squid

Can you see how yummy it is???

Marche Tree

Sitting under the tree having our dinner

Have a dinner inside the forest

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Me & Him!!!!!

Taken while we are walking @ vivio city shopping mall

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Sunday, June 01, 2008

23 May 2008 (Photos)

(Our formal photo before going into to graduation ceremory)

(Said Cheessss................)

(Awaiting for the arrival of my Cert..........)

(Getting my Cert................)

(Yeah... We finally graduate liao........)

(Us....... With the handsome IT Teacher (MARK JOHN　ＰＨＩＬＩＰ　　))

（Ｍｅ　＆　Ｍｕｍｍｙ）

（Ｍｅ　ａｎｄ　ｍｕｍｍｙ　ｐａｒｔ　２　）

(Mummy & Me............　Ｄｏ　ｗｅ　ｌｏｏｋ　ａｌｉｋｅ？？？？）

（Ｅｖｅｌｙｎｎ，　Ｍｅ，　Ａｄｒａｉｎ，　Ｊｏｓｙ，　Ｈｕｉ　Ｆｅｎ）

（Ｍｅ，　Ｅｖｅｌｙｎｎ，　Ｆｅｎ　Ｍｅｉ）

(ME with my Cert...................)

(MＥ　！！！！！！）

（Ｍｅ　＆　ＳｈｕｉＭｉｎ）

（Ｆｅｎ　Ｍｅｉ　＆　Ｍｅ）

（Ｊｏｓｙ　，　Ｍｅ，　Ｊｉｎ　Ｙｉｎ）

(Evelynn & Me )

(Pei Xiu & Me..........)

(Me...............)

（Ｈｕｉ　Ｆｅｎ，　Ｐｅｉ　Ｘｉｕ，　Ｊｏｃｅlynn, Annabelle, Evelynn, Me, Jin Yin）

(Me & Mark John Philip)

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