PROJECT, ASSIGNMENT, PRESENTATION, REPORT
they are all driving me crazy......................
how i wish i could just quit school
and forget about this paper and this course
how i wish i colud just give out like this
and do things that i want...........
i too tired to see this 4 words apperaing in my brain....
it's driving me crazy ...
it so fearful......
i tired....
i stress....
i unhappy.....
i scare..........
i depress.......
i not happy anymore.....
i just a person with no goal in my life
i just a person that does things that i force to do
i just a person with no decision making
i just to tired to listen to what others tell me what i sholud and sholud not do
i just to tired to care about how other feel( in the end i the one who feel hurt and unhappy)
I NOT GOING TO CARE ANYMORE
i going to do the things that i think is right

if i tell everyone that i going to give up half-way
everyone will said that i foolish.....
you wasted 2.5 years here
and now left 1 sem and u one to give up....
i know is foolish to think that way....
i suffering here
i have to act happy when going to school
when i seriously know i NOT!!!!!!
i keep force myself to think 1 sem liao very fast pass one
it already half of the sem liao
but to me it seen that
hours are like days
days are like years
i really not sure what i want and what i should do
i TIRED to carry on walking
will anyone be there to carry me
to walk finish this destination
i feel so lonely walking alone..............

she is off to a world of loniness and sadness...........

Last friday meet up with Lay ping and we went to VIVIO city. It has been half a year since we last meet up liao. took lots of photo. enjoy myself that night and hope to meet her more often.....

I WANT TO KEEP FIT...........

yesterday mummy told me something
that i so fearful for
she said: "you ah eat liao den sit there don't exercise... if fat is very hard to slim down liao"
oh no...........
she said "the hand, the leg and the stomach fat liao how to slim down leh
even slim down the skin will be zou zou......
OMG!!!!!!!
what i going to do???
i have flabby legs....
flabby hands.....
flabby stomach......

I WANT SLIM DOWN................
i want to have slim figure
and not water bucket figure..........
anyone got ways to slim down????

10 SHOULD NOT'S
no pork.......
no fastfood......
no deep fried food.....
no western food.......
no soft drink...........
no chocolate.........
no potato chips.............
no unhealthy food........
no snack/tea time.....
no more den 3 meals a days......


5 SHOULD's
yes: vegetable,fish and fruits....
yes: exercise at least a day....
yes: the less meal the better
yes: noddles instead of rice
yes: water,tea

the above should be a list that i should fellow closely.........

my wish list:

no flabby leg
no flabby hand
flat tummy
weight = 40 -42 kg

人生的十个秘密

1. 當你愛上一個人而不被對方所愛，是一件很傷害的事。 　但最痛苦的莫過於你愛一個人卻沒有勇氣讓他知道你的感受。

2. 最好的朋友是那一種，能夠讓你坐在鞦韆上，不發一言，然後 　靜靜地一起離開，感覺就是從未有過最好的對話。

3. 這是真實的～你永遠不知道你得到了什麼，直到你失去的時候。 　而更加真實的是，你永遠不會知道自己失去了什麼，直到他到 　達的時候。

4. 要遇上一個人，只要用一分鐘的時間； 　要喜歡上一個人只要用一句話的時間。 　要愛上一個人，只要用一天的時間； 　但要忘記一個人，卻要用上一生的時間。

5. 為自己的夢想而去想，到自己想到的地方，做自己想做的事。 　因為你只有一次的人生及一次的機會去做這全部的事。

6. 嘗試把自己放在對方的立場，當你感覺受到傷害時，很有可能 　他也是被傷害。

7. 最快樂的人並沒有需要擁有世上所有最好的事，而只需要令到 　大部份的事能沿著自己的人生而來。

8. 人生中一件傷心的事，是當你遇見一個對你充滿意義的人，但 　你卻在最後才發現。

9. 一句不小心說的說話，會令一場罵戰展開，一句殘酷的句子， 　會摧毀你一生；一句愛的句子，卻會是無限的喜悅和祝福。

10.愛由一個笑容開始，用一個吻來成長，用一滴眼淚來結束。 　當你出生時，你一個人在哭，而所有的人在旁的人在笑。 　因此請活出你的生命，當你死的時候，圍繞你的人在哭， 　而你便是唯一一個在笑。

每当夜深人静的时候，有没有会想起一个人，
希望她（他）能揽你入怀，
让你感觉到丝丝温暖；
每当心事重重的时候，
有没有会想起一个人，
希望她（他）能陪伴你身边，
听你诉说，
为你解忧；
每当遇到挫折的时候，
有没有会想起一个人，
希望听到她（他）对你的鼓励，
感受到无尽的力量；
每当泪流满面的时候，
有没有会想起一个人，
希望她（他）为你擦去泪水，
抚平那受伤的心灵 每当……，
有过无数的设想，
无数的希望，
而这个人却并非是你的家人，
这是一种怎样的感情？
或许是不想说清，
可是却无时不在思念着她（他），
想着有关她（他）的一切。
这是一种怎样的感情？
超越朋友，介于家人？
其实每个人都清楚，
我们常常会这样想念一个人，
没有任何的理由，只是想念，
一种刻骨的思念……
其实感情很简单，只要理解就可以，只要有感觉就可以了

recently i have post a post saying i not happy.......
a lot of people came forward to ask me if i ok?
girls and guys thanks for your care and concern.....
i doing fine....
just feeling stress up and one to let it out
by saying it out i feel better
through this incident i got a conclusion
i not lonely in this world
i have lots of good and close friends
who will care for me when i feeling down
who will pick me up when i fall down
i really happy to have your as friend
without your i don't know where i am
i must said a big big THANKS
without your i don't know where i am
your words, your concern really touch my heart
and make me feel better
thanks for everything that your have done for me
friends i will always be there if your need me.......

finally i receive a good news from my dad.......
.............. something that brighten up my days.....................
i going back to my gong gong house on 15/12/2007
to celebrate gong gong 80th birthday.....
that means all our my aunts, uncles and cousin will be back
i looking forward really looking forwards
maybe that is the good news that i have receive this few days.....
it has been a long time since we go back and had a nice gathering liao.....
that is like this year chinese new year?
ok remeber ah cousin kindly make yourself availabe on that days to go back for the gathering
your attendance is important.....
pls push aways all your dates ah.....haha
is reserved for me liao..... hehe
happy happy happy....
most important i heard that we are going to have seafood dinner wah...
think liao so happy....
pls let time pass faster... i can't waot for that days to arrive.....

Wednesday morning was raining cat and dog.......

why do i look so different that i used to be?

I NOT HAPPY!!!!!

life has been bad for me, recently there are too many things for me to take it
it so stressful.......
when will i breakdrown? this question has been in my mind for the past few days...
how long will i able to hang in there?
what will happen if i give out half-way?
i too tired to countine to walk anymore....
i really scare i will breakdown and go into depression state.....
stress start to Accumulate since the day when sem start..........
dragging my foot to school, it has been so different when going to school compare to last time.
i not looking forward anymore.....
i so hope that i can get out form the strssful school forever... and stay in my warm little home.
why can't life by smiple?
why must life be so stressful?
why must life consists of up and down?
I just want a life that is stress-free and more simple.....
am i asking too much?
i just feel that the stress, the problems i have, the unhappines things in my heart in like a time bomb. it really hard to predict when this time bomb is going to explore......
i do not want to be winner....
i just want my life to be simpler. doing things that i enjoy, doing things that i happy....
am i asking too much????
can anyone tell me... if i stupid or useless?
what can't i just do things well like how the rest is doing?
telling people to stay positive is easy but hard to be done?
i not as cheerful as what other see in me!
i not as happy as what your see from me!
i not as positive thinking as what your think of me!
I really want to get out of this.... i very tired.... very tired........... very tired........
will anyone be there to hold my hand and guide me..... i tired walking alone......
sometime i really want to cry out hard. lets all the troubles goes as my tears fall.........

i just miss him too much........... it has been 3 days since i talk to him liao.....
where are you?
i need you!
where are you?
i have so many unhappines things to tell you
where are you?
i need you the most and you are not there (i never blame you cause you also don't want it one)
i want a comfortable shoulders to sleep on when i tired
i need a comfortable sholuders to cry on when i want to cry
Where are you?
i have so many things to share with you
where are you?
pls come back as soon as possible
i really can not take it anymore
you are the only one who know me better den i know myself.....

how long will all thoes unhappines going to end?
i just want my sem pass faster.......
i want back the cheerful me......

she is off... and to a world of depression .......

wah..............
it has been months since i last blog liao....
my dear friends don't worry....
i still alive doing fine.....
recently life has been up and down for me
and not forgeting i have lots of photo to share with your
don't remember to come and view wor.....
love all my friends and miss your....

oh today 9/11/2007 i really enjoy myself
went out with my group of girls...... i enjoy myself to the MAX!!!!!!

thanks girls...
everytime with your around i never lonely.....
i love your so much....
words are hard to express my love to all of your.....
hehehehe.......
your really have make my life brighten out again......

Today went to MINDS cafe (finally get the chance to go there liao....)
so many games for us to play...
ended out we play monpoly for more den 1 hours....
in the ended i lost even we combined our money (fen mei, xiu xiu and xiao jin ying)
in the end the WINNER is Eve....... hip hip horroy
evening when to Marine South to have steamboat for dinner....
I so proud of myself...want to know why?
This is the first time i touch the crab when it's alive......
i untie the string... i wash the crab....
i believe this is the first time in my entire live i have done before.
has a lot of food, laughter and photos (will post on blog when i free.... so take a look out wor)
that is how i spend my friday

FRIDAY + FRIENDS (MY 6 Flowers) = SUPER HAPPY !!!!!!!!

Name: Kew Wan Xuan(Cecilia)

Age: 21 years old

DOB: 08 AUG

Zodiac Sign: Leo

School: Geylang Methodist Primary School (1994-1999)

School: Geylang Methodist Secondary School (2000-2005)

School: Temasek Poly(Moblie & Wireless Computing)(2005-2008)

School: University of Society(2008-????)

MY 7 FLOWERS

SLEEP

SLACK @ HOME

FRIENDS

SOMEONE (WA HA HA HA!)

relax and chit-chatting

SHOPPING

love to make friend

My DS