Works has been dull and boring recently.......
the work load is increasing and the more i do the more blur i am
this few day i found out that i always make mistake.....
why ????? i just don't like the feeling
maybe i really tired
especially when i sleep late the night before
den when i go work i look so tired.......
am it has been a few week i late for work
i never reach my office on the dot anymore
and i feel so guilty
especailly when i come later den my colleague

how my life in office????
office consist lot of people
i can say i don' not know most of them
some of them are friendly
but there are still a minority of people who are super unfriendly
8 June 2008 marks the day when i in the company for 3 months
and i can still said i do not feel myself being part of the company
very sad right???
althought i happy working with my colleague
as she is friendly
we have so many things to talk
so many joke to tell
maybe i can say our work station is located in a small room
so we tent to be less close to the staff outside, should not said "we" i sholud siad only me as i there for only 3 months while my colleague has been there for 3 years
of course she know everyone and able to start a conversation easily with them.....

i have been trying my best to start a conversation with people
but it seen so hard
especially when i see people i don't konw
or seen before but never talk at all
i really don't know how to start a conversation (this expalin why my friend are so limited)
my mouth will just shut up
without daring to said anything.......
please don't be mistaken me as a unfriendly person or "dao" person
as people who know me very well will know that i not this knid of people
insteAd i love to make friends, i treat every friendship seriuosly, i treasure all my friend..........

why some people able to start a converstation easily especially a stranger
while i can not
i really hate this character of mine
worst of all
when i not a indpendant person
i don't like to be alone
this make my life so miserable.........
why can't i just talk easily and freely when i saw a stranger or people who i not very close
my job really does not allow me to have this kind of character
as i will be seeing lots of people
having to communicate with lot of people
i feel and there is really a need to put a big full stop to this character of mine

i shall change into a character that i wanted most
to be sociable,,,,
to be friendly
to have lot and lots of things to chat with when i see different people
to become a people who see me and they will like me (ren jian ren ai)
when will i really change..........

Name: Kew Wan Xuan(Cecilia)

Age: 21 years old

DOB: 08 AUG

Zodiac Sign: Leo

School: Geylang Methodist Primary School (1994-1999)

School: Geylang Methodist Secondary School (2000-2005)

School: Temasek Poly(Moblie & Wireless Computing)(2005-2008)

School: University of Society(2008-????)

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