recently has been feeling sad and moody. i really don't know why.... :(.................
maybe because in 3 more weeks kelvin will be in the army liao. 3 months of army life,book out on sat and sunday,then have rest for one week, then 3 months again book out on sat and sun then half years of 8 to 5 then for the rest of the 7 and 8 years book out on sat and sun. i really scare that our communication will have lots and lots of problem and that means when he go army i need depent on myself liao.he will not be with me when ever i need him. sometime think of that really really feel very sad liao.

recently has been feeling that i have less friend and friends that really close to me that i can share my probelm with. i don't know why. i has always wish that i can spend more time with my friend spend a good friendship with them. but everyone is busy so is very hard to really meet out to go for a shopping,a dinner or even a movie. i really hope that i will be a closer friendship with all of my friends. and get to know more friends and have more close and best friends where we can share our happy monents.....

i have been feeling that i am a person with no-confidence, a person who is useless,a person who is stupid,person who don't talk much. a person who i don't like at all. I really want to change my character. Change into a character where me myself like it also. teach me how??? how can i be happy,how can not a useless person,how can i stop being stupid,i want to have more confidence. i really not happy at all. really very sad and moody. sometime i really hate myself. why am i like that. why i am living a life that i not happy at all. sometime i want to cry out loud but i just don't have the courage.why am i so useless. i don't have the courage to show all the people around me that i sad instead i must still put on a happy face actually deep down inside my heart i very very sad. i really want to cry, i very sad, very moody. i really don't know what i can do that can make me love myself more. who can help me... :(
got to stop here.hope that i able to face everyday with a big bright smile...... going off....

Name: Kew Wan Xuan(Cecilia)

Age: 21 years old

DOB: 08 AUG

Zodiac Sign: Leo

School: Geylang Methodist Primary School (1994-1999)

School: Geylang Methodist Secondary School (2000-2005)

School: Temasek Poly(Moblie & Wireless Computing)(2005-2008)

School: University of Society(2008-????)

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